Earlier today I took a nap (as college students are apt to do) and fell asleep with the my iPod playing. I soon found myself having a simple dream that was nothing more than a guitar and music playing, with the strings fretting themselves along with the music. In my dream I realized that this was rather odd - after all, guitars don't tend to play themselves - so I woke myself up, only to realize that song playing in my dream was the one playing on my iPod, and I went from dreaming to waking consciousness without any break in the music. I don't know whether or not the guitar in my dream was playing at the right notes or not, but it was a rather enjoyable experience regardless.

Chatroulette. Maybe you've heard of it. Apparently it's the latest internet craze to go viral, and I'm just a tad hooked. Basically, it's a web site that puts you face to face with a random stranger via webcam. Hilarity, awkwardness, and perversion may ensue. There are TONS of penises out there (apparently masturbating for stranger is a favorite pastime for many people), but there are also a few people willing to have intelligent conversation also. A lot of the time the convos don't go too far, but the other day I did have a wonderful conversation with Kim, a 60+ year old gay engineer from South Dakota, and we discussed our belief systems, the economy, and gay rights. It was quite wonderful. I also met with a girl named Heather, who is quite "chill" (as the kiddies call it nowadays), and we've exchanged SNs and talk off and on every once in a while. It's nice. I'll admit, it was very awkward the first time I tried it out, because I was suddenly thrust into a conversational atmosphere without warning. However, I quickly learned that about 80% of the people on the site will glance at you and click "next" within 3 seconds, so generally the people who actually wait to see what you have to say might be worth talking to you. It gets boring after a while, yet I always manage to keep coming back...

Hello, faithful reader!

The past week or so has been very interesting. My social situation here at Rowan has already changed a bit; Wendy and I broke up last week (it was mutual) and Amabel is finally here =]. It's taking a little bit of adjustment but I've noticed that I just feel different than I have during previous semesters. I just kinda have this gut feeling about where my life is heading, and I know it's going to be a joyous ride. I've noticed over the past few months that I am, frankly, losing my mind. My experiences are directing me to rely on things other the rational mind, such as emotions and intuition. I've also had a few synchronicities occur within the past week or so, and learning to put faith in them instead of listening to my head has been a bit of a challenge for me. It makes me feel a little bit crazy, because my ego wants to tell me "there's something wrong with this". But of course my ego would say that, as it's no longer getting the attention that it once had. I want someone to tell me "Yes, this is a normal part of human life, having faith in the experiences the mind can't understand is perfectly fine." But even if I was told this, the decision is ultimately mine. I'm not really worried though; we all have our own brand of crazy. =]

There was one night when I was in sixth grade, and I put at ceramic jar to my mouth and sucked all the air out of it, so that I could hold the jar to my face without having to use my hands to touch it. I ended up creating so much suction that it pulled the blood towards my skin, essentially giving me a giant hickey around my mouth and chin.

I "rediscovered" this song tonight, I had forgotten all about it though I love it so much.

I like to do funky dances when I'm alone on elevators, whether there's music or not. Then I walk off as if nothing happened, smiling on the inside.